My Mother’s Day

As I lay here looking at you while you sleep on my heart , I’m in awe of you! You have been my biggest challenge and my biggest accomplishment in the same breath. Your intermittent smiles and morning cuddles make everything in life so much more worth it. It makes whatever chaos outside of us in this very moment seem so small. You make me smile without even trying. You are literally my heart outside of my body – I never understood that until you came into my life. A complete familiar stranger to me…

I know nothing about you and EVERYTHING about you at the same time. You are ME! Carrying you inside my tummy was some of the best days I had. I promised myself to live in that moment and I did. Every kick. Every picture. Every moment meant so much to me. Every prayer. Every stretch mark. Every pain. Every scar is a reminder of the battle I fought and WON to get you here closer to me. And now meeting you outside my womb while my body heals is beyond amazing. I would do it all over again if it meant laying here in this very moment with you in my arms. it makes it all worth it!

Thank you my Reign for making me a mother … more importantly, YOUR MOMMY! This title is the greatest title I’ve ever had. Even with the credentials behind my name and Mrs in front of it, Mommy is the best one! You are changing me … I feel it. And even though I know I’m going to miss my old self, I’m ready to embrace this new me that you have helped to emerge. I think of you all the time. I want to give you the love you deserve, the protection you need. I want to be perfect for you although I know that is impossible. I just want to give you the world in hopes you’ll settle for my whole heart instead.

Thank you Reign ! I love you over the greatest REIGN-BOW and back. Happy Mother’s Day to us baby girl

Keep Karmalized

With so much going on in the world today I often wonder about the future we are all rapidly approaching. Will it get better or worse?   Working as a Nurse and caring for my share of trauma patients do not help the cause nor my thoughts either! Night in and out I see how ONE bad decision can impact your whole life… How some great people can be dealt such bad cards leaving them in such a bad state and drowning in a world of questions.
Life has so many uncontrolled variables that are totally beyond our own understanding.

Monday night at work as I administered meds to a patient, I watched the verdict of the situation in Ferguson unfold. I will not get into a debate of who and what was right but I will tell you THAT is a situation that has changed lives. Whether the distrust of law and those enforcing it is your change or the hate you feel for ignorance; some how that situation made a change. It is horrible to see guns being used so freely and life being thought of as invaluable but then see a patient fighting so hard for a life they didnt have a chance to live in a hospital bed. If you think that is a 100% reference to the Ferguson case, think again!!. This goes way deeper than that. How selfish are we to place such little value on the ONE life we were all given a chance to live? Why add more chaos to an already uncontrollable state of living? My wish is that all the unnecessary violence will cease but we all know that is a long road less seem to travel. Although I wish I had presidential powers minus the presidential problems, my reality is I am a small country bred Nurse that have her own problems to battle with daily. I don’t rally up speeches and take lead in protest. I do not try to be the  present day Dr. King either. I, however, applaud those who have the courage,strength no-how to do those things. My change is smaller than that… my change starts with changing the way I think of others and spreading the lost word: kindness  in the atmosphere. Small starts can fuel big changes!  In such a mess that we continue to observe each day, I continue to challenge each of you to do something kind to someone else. While it may not win you the Noble Peace Prize today,YOU ARE taking steps to change a person’s aspect of their day or even a hopeless decision. Think about it! Be apart of the movement! Inspire others! It is simple, inexpensive and rewarding! #dontshoot

#keepkarmalized

Its Back

I have struggled the last couple of weeks with being inspired enough to blog. I am not sure HOW many times I opened my application to write but ended up staring with a blank mind on a blank screen… Sounds crazy or maybe cliche to some but I am the type of person that goes with how i feel. I want my words to not be empty content but content from my heart. I want to be inspired to write how i feel and hopefully inspire others. This means alot to me! I apologize for my lack of communication but i do have a couple ideas i want to share in the near future so STAY TUNED!! Thanks to those that questioned my absence, I am back!!

The holidays are coming so if anyone has ideas of projects, please feel free to send them to me!!